My New Role Model

And my new favorite movie. I finally just watched Robert Rodriguez's "Planet Terror" and have already watched it twice. I'm sure I'll watch it a few more times before returning it to Blockbuster. Wow. It was absolutely AMAZING!

And now Rose McGowan's character, Cherry Darling, is my ultimate role model. Holy hell, she kicked so much ass in this movie. My favorite scene is when "El Ray" gives her the gun for a leg. He tells her, "I do believe in you. Always have. I believe that you could be better. You deserve better. Even better than me. Right now, I need you to become who you're meant to be. Stand."

Wow. Talk about empowering. These last few months have nearly driven me to the edge. I feel like I've fallen so hard and gotten so lost that life is whirling around me in chaos out of my control. I know I need to leave, and have been making plans to do so, which has helped improve my mood and self confidence in the last couple weeks, and my tattoo is very meaningful for me as well, and gives me a clear picture of my goal. To become who I'm meant to be. This movie just drove that in even deeper. And now I'm ready. Ready to do whatever it takes to break out of my cocoon like the moth on my chest. Say goodbye to the old Amanda. She won't be around much longer.